Friday, September 28, 2018



"So that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ." Philippians 1:10 NIV

Now the days are warm, and the nights cool. We begin the autumn season, as September is behind us and October is surging forward.
I seem to just get a grasp on a month and it's gone.

This reminds me to take some time, and look around, and say thanks. We usually think of thanks in November but we have much to be thankful for all year round. 

As the people of God we are in the palm of His hands. He watches over us no matter what we are going through. His gaze is forever on us. We are safe, but not free from trials. Our enemy wants to take us down, and he plays dirty.

No wonder Paul prays for his church, "that you may be able to discern what is best, and may be pure and blameless." Christian parents pray this for their children. Teachers pray this for their students. One of the best things we can teach anyone is to be careful.

Carefulness doesn't define discernment, but it's a good place to start. If we can quiet ourselves, and allow spiritual discernment to come ahead of our own feelings and emotions, we have gained ground.

Most of the time, my feelings are way ahead of my brain, but not all of the time anymore. Calling on the Lord in every situation can bring His presence into our everyday. He wants to effect even those small things we take for granted.

Once we see God's hand in the small things, we can accept the reality of His hand in big things too. Sometimes God gives us the choice. 





Tuesday, September 25, 2018



"And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight," Philippians 1:9 NIV

Have you ever climbed a rock wall? Some climb indoors, and others, outdoors. Wherever the wall might be it takes endurance, skill, and strength, or at least I imagine it does. I haven't tried it. 

When we think about every move we make, life is usually more predictable. Sometimes we take one avenue expecting a certain outcome, but we don't get what we expected. Life is unpredictable.

How can we be ready when those precarious situations come our way even when we have taken every precaution? Every day, feed your spirit with the truth of God's word. Lies are everywhere, but when we are saturated with truth, we can stand in the storm.

Every trial is an opportunity to grow closer to the Lord. This is one reason God allows trial in our lives. We learn His faithfulness. He is trustworthy, but if we don't have to trust Him we won't. Human nature wants to trust itself. This is one of the biggest lies of the enemy.

Our nature wants to put us on a pedestal. It will place self in the center. When this is the case, everyone else is out of the picture.
Selfish, self-centered people have no regard for others. 

Paul the Apostle writes to his church in Philippi, "my prayer is that your love may abound more and more," When Jesus is at the center of our lives, love abounds, because "God is love."

Forgetting about self, only brings love forward. How do we love a selfish world? We need to see God's heart of love for them.
1 Corinthians 13:4 reads: Love endures long and is kind; love is never envious nor boils over with jealousy; is not boastful or vainglorious; does not display itself haughtily."

Reading all of chapter 13 of 1Corinthians is eye-opening. Do you want to know what God is like? Read this chapter, verses 1-8. 


Monday, September 24, 2018



Loading the Dishwasher and Other Things of No Significance

I am completely off track today but please bear with me. I have to admit I have meltdown days. I don't have them for no reason, but for tragic circumstances. Unfortunately, my emotions don't match up with the moment.

God loves me in the midst of the trauma, and when I have a delayed reaction. When you read my book, you will understand about how this came to be in my life. {the book is a work in progress} 

Jesus, in His amazing wisdom, gives us glimpses of how things are, but also of how things ought to be. I didn't know stuffing my emotions and letting them out at other times was not healthy. I was unaware of this happening. This was how my family operated, or my mother at least.

She didn't know she could change, although she wanted to go to counseling in her 80's but thought it was too late. I used to tell her,"Mom, it's never too late." Love you Mom! 

What does this have to do with the dishwasher? I was loading it this morning and thinking about how trivial it is. Many things we do each day have little significance, but if we ignore them, we would have a huge mess. I would rather do daily chores than have a huge once a week pile to deal with.

 {My daughter Stephanie, a teen doesn't agree with this theory.}

I'm asking the Lord to even out my emotions so I don't stuff them into a big ball of messiness. I have made good progress since my post-partum depression days. What about you? Do you ever feel a delayed reaction to a serious situation?

My sister lost her house and all its contents to a flood in North Carolina last week, just a week from today. She and her daughter Kim were in New York with us when it happened, and her husband and son were at their house. They left as the waters of the Cape Fear River came up through the floor boards.

No one can get close to their house to see what the damage is, but the experts think there was about three feet of water inside at the cresting point. God is faithful regardless of our circumstances, but it hurts when a loved one is away and going through a difficult time.

Thank God I can lean on Him. I can lean into Him, as He surrounds me. I know He is surrounding Allison, Steve, Zac, and Kim as well. How do I know? 

I'm praying. God is answering. 

Love to all and especially those in the flooded areas of North and South Carolina.







Wednesday, September 19, 2018



" It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart; for whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share God's grace with me."
Philippians 1:7 NIV

This picture reminds me of my daughters, Rachel and Stephanie. Rachel used to read to Steph since they are 10 years apart. Before Stephanie was born Rachel used to beg me for a baby sister.

Without going into all the details I told her it was out of my hands, and she needed to pray. She did, and I had given it to the Lord to do whatever He wanted. I wanted another daughter, but my husband wanted two children. 

He was thinking two children was a houseful, but not me! I wanted two girls and two boys from when I was a little girl. We used to have a playhouse in our backyard when I was a child. All the children in our neighborhood came to play. There weren't any fences for a while so the open yards made it easy for others to enter and exit easily.

I was the mother, and I had a lot of children. It fits with my teacher and real life mother mode. It fits with my current mode of writing and praying. As Paul says,"It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart." I feel this way about you, and those in the prayer ministry I organize, and know from church. 

I don't need to know all the details of everyone else's life. In prayer, I can cover you, as the Spirit gives me discernment. This is the greatest previledge

 of a child of God.  Sometimes we don't know when a prayer is answered. Other times we hear a good report.

God is answering prayer for my sister who lost her house to flood waters this week. A friend is allowing her and family to live in an empty condo near the school where she teaches. 

Her husband's employer is offering food and money. My brother in law said he has never worked for an employer who has been this generous, but he hasn't ever been in need like this before. Thank God, for kindness of people in the Wilmington N.C. area, and those who came in from all over the country.

Please pray for those hit by Hurricane Florence, as it will take months before their lives return to normal. Pray for these circumstances to lead people to lean on Jesus, and truly find His strength for everyday. Thank You!

Tuesday, September 18, 2018



"There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you will keep at it and bring you to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears." Philippians 1:6 The Message

This is a known verse so I thought you might enjoy reading it in "The Message" version. The interpretation may not be accurate, but for our purposes it works well. Thank God He is working in us, because without Him, nothing would be accomplished!

We cannot change ourselves or others. I thought I could change my Dad, but spent many years of frustration trying to turn him into me.
God has a specific plan for each life, and I knew this but still wanted him to live a better life. There's nothing wrong with this, except he was always bent on being himself.

All of us want to be "ourselves". We can't be anything else, but we can be the best version of ourselves, by the power of the Holy Spirit. The Spirit of God will not make us, or push us into becoming like Christ. 

He moves gently in our lives, and only after we have given Him permission. He, the Holy Spirit, will not usurp our will. If we push Him away, He will go away. If we open to the will of our Father through the Holy Spirit, He will come in and do extraordinary things!

As a younger person, I thought I had given all of me to God, but now I can see I didn't. I didn't realize the depth of His wisdom and love for me, until I surrendered more. There possibly is more I will find to surrender in the future.

It's God who does the work. Prayer is what will change us, and others. I don't know if my Dad changed any, but I trust God heard my prayer for him, and made himself known to him at some point before he died.

One day we may see Him, with our own eyes, here on earth. It is incomprehensible to me to understand this but I know it could happen. I believe it could be in my lifetime. Are you able to grasp what this means to us?

The Creator of our Universe, and any other universes, wants to return to this earth to be with us, and set up his millennial rule here.
Can you comprehend such a thing?

Monday, September 17, 2018



"because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now," Philippians 1:5 NIV

I don't like to share pictures of myself, but today seems like a good day for this one. I don't remember where this was taken but it was a few years ago. We look young, but it's only because this isn't a close up.

I haven't thought about age much until recently. I don't feel any older, because on the inside I am a girl. Do you feel the same way? Sometimes when I look in the mirror I see the girl, and sometimes I see someone else.

It's all me, so I'm not worried. I love me at every stage, and as long as the girl is shining from the inside, I'm not concerned. Age is a state of mind, however, our bodies give way to the corruption in this world.

This past month I have learned to pray a lot, because my body hasn't been happy. Ear and sinus infections, with anxiety, a twisted ankle, and them back pain. All of these things were temporary, but put me on my back for several days at a time.

This has caused me to think about how will I handle pain as I get older. I have come to conclude, I will handle pain as I have always handled pain. With wisdom from doctors, and a lot of prayer, not in this order. Prayer is my daily life line to the Lord.

He can calm the raging sea of emotion in me. Sometimes I have found, my emotions about pain are actually worse than pain itself.I can trust God when I know what is happening, but I need to trust Him even when I don't know the outcome.

Remembering how God went through the fire and flame with me in the past helps. It bring peace because I remember His faithfulness is with me even when the circumstances aren't what I had hoped for. 

Can you relate to any of this? Probably since I know I'm not alone.


























Friday, September 14, 2018



"In all my prayers for all of you,  I always pray with joy." Philippians 1:4 NIV

Joy comes from the Lord. I know this is a blanket statement, but I believe it is true." Every good and perfect gift comes from above."James 1:17 KJV What can I say? Having the weight of sin lifted off your shoulders brings delight and peace too.

I can remember when God took all of the extra baggage off of me. It felt lighter than air. I didn't float, but my spirit inside did! I went weeks without a care. Why did I move my attention off of Jesus, and on to this world? 

Something shocked me into earthly reality. I remember it well. My Father was insisting I get a j-o-b. How could he say such a thing! I'm teasing, but at the time it was not what I wanted to hear.

He was right, and he had a job for me at a factory near our home. I worked there for 6 weeks, and got laid off, just before a week long retreat at our church. I was able to obey my Father and go on the retreat.

I had joy at my job, but it took a bit of time. Jesus came with me, to my surprise. I didn't know this was possible. I was a brand new christian, a babe in Christ. Similar to our new Pup. She is silly, falling over herself with her oversized paws, and pouncing.

There is much to learn as a babe. Daisy, our pup is searching out every corner of our house and yard. It is new, and different than the farm she came from. All of her people, and dogs are different too.

I felt as if I had entered a new place. It was different than any other time until this point. Maybe you can relate?